2009 Closing

Kalu terbaca tajuk kat atas ni, of course akan teringat masa-masa closing di opis lama dahulu... Hujung tahun memang tak boleh duduk senang, panic attack melanda dan yang paling hampeh ialah aku dan staff sama-sama kena kejar supplier for the bills.

Tapi hujung tahun ni agak lengang. Lengang sebab kerja hampir selesai. Yang belum selesai kena carry forward lah. Masalahnya nak mendapatkan maklumat daripada agensi masa hujung tahun ni tak yah haraplah... Sebab semuanya dah pergi bercuti monsoon holiday! Lengang juga sebab bos ramai dah bercuti. Lengang juga sebab takde motivasi nak duduk sini lama-lama...

Agak-agaknya lah, bila aku akan dapat pindah balik ke Kuching??? Dua hari lepas dapatlah berita menggemparkan.. Akibat perasaan tamak haloba, habuannya kena soalsiasat SPRM lak... Tak berani cerita lebih nanti ada yang terasa... So adalah insan yang ikhlas meng'update' kekosongan di Kuching nun... Masalahnya nanti, nak kena 'cuci' segala 't**i', sampah yang dah dilakukan oleh jahanam sekalian tadi. Tak sanggup rasanya nak membersihkan kerja orang. Nak start dari awal?

Apa-apa pun, big boss sini memang dah siap bagitau dia tak akan release aku, berdasarkan komen2 membina ex-bosses yang memang kawan rapat dia dulu.. Tapi, tak bolehkah pertimbangkan masalah aku yang berada di perantauan serta berjauhan dengan suami, dan anak yang masih kecil???

Kepala hotak dah pening memikir semua ni... Kira bernasib baik sebab tak kena penyakit tekanan darah tinggi. Sebab aku ni memang tekanan darah rendah.. Pening memikir belanja bulanan yang asyik habis digunakan untuk beli tiket terbang balik Kuching.. Pening memikirkan yang aku kehilangan a large part of my daughter's life. Her growing up years.

Apa yang aku tak buat? Segala macam kabel dah guna. Dengan broadband segala. Kabel paling atas memang on sentiasa.

Apa lagi yang aku tak buat? Hantar surat emel sana sini. Merayu pun dah tak kira masa dan ketika...

Apa yang patut aku buat lagi? Follow up, follow up, follow up.

Apa yang aku tak perlu buat?Menyalahkan takdir?

Senangla orang lain cakap dan tengok. Kena kat batang hidung sendiri, baru korang tau. Senangler nak cakap, "Ala, takpela tu.. Duduk sini kejap..." "Bawakla anak pi sini", "Suruhla suami cari kerja kat KL..."
Cuba pulak ko buat???

Aku dah penat sebenarnya. Kalau tak memikirkan anak, tak tahula apa yang aku akan buat. Aku dah buat segala yang lurus, ikut peraturan, masih tak nampak hasilnya. Orang yang buat jalan pintas, bengkang bengkok, tai chi master tu pulak cepat dapat.

I'm tired, and I want to go home.

Cuepacs, buck up!!!

My mornings have always started with a routine -- on the laptop, air my office room, get a nice, hot cup of Milo and start reading the online news. The favs would be The Star and Berita Harian. Occasionally I would glance at Malaysiakini, or Borneo Post, just to have some news at home... But today's headlines totally caught my attention and I cannot help but wonder if people are getting more selfish nowadays???

1st headline was the comment made by our PM on Cuepacs demand for a 2-month bonus in this very critical economic crisis. I quote "...it is morally wrong for Cuepacs to make such a request when the Government is making efforts to ride out of the global economic crisis..."

Being a govt servant myself, I am so glad that my allowance have not being cut. Instead the govt decided to extend the RM500 to grade 41-54, which I dare say is a very brave move. Although the govt has been known to allocate a large sum for its operating expenditure (which of course comes from the rakyat) maybe the rakyat has to realise, that's where the free services comes from. Even banks and telcos charge us to print our statements! Govt have been so frugal in it's spending, that even some have to work weekends without OT. Because the rakyat wants them to. Because the rakyat wants us govt servants to work our a** off like we are no humans but robots.

I have work in both private and govt, and it is obvious that govt nowadays are so much different from the 90s and before. Work piles up on your table, meetings have to be done in such a hurried way (we had to do it like Google.com).. Although there are certain level of govt servants that are not so busy, or have some attitude problems, the rest are simply overwhelmed with work.

Which is why I have to cut short my yakkings this morning.

To My Dear Friends, You Know Who You Are...

I was compelled to write today, to commemorate a friend's brave action. Being the rebel with a cause, she had the nerve to go against the SOP, and yet her actions, to me, were justified. I couldn't detail out what she did, else I would be breaching against the code of conduct as a government servant. But I fully supported her in whatever she's doing, because I believe what she did was right.


Maybe somebody up there shouldn't be so emotional and quit thinking about oneself. Instead think of the service as a whole and be responsible for every decision you make. Fear the God instead of the HUMAN acting like God. We humans are disposable anyway, and we will be remembered for what we did and said.


I could only pray that my dear friend will survive this cruel service with the guidance of a good boss and in the company of good friends. I hope now she knows that no matter much we want to trust people, it is best to trust the Creator...


I also pray for my dear friends who has been with me all the way, regardless of our posts or pay or background... For you gave me the strength to be what I am today...

Lunch With Mr Banjo!

Curiosity kills a cat. Not in my case today. My curiosity of the new cafetaria operator in B1 sure managed to drag my lazy bum out of the office. Went to have lunch there with my colleague, Derm, and both of us had Burger Banjo, or Banjo Burger, whatever you may want to call it. Since I already took down a heavy breakfast this morning, I agreed to have an egg burger instead.



Basically it's an egg burger, with mayo and slices of cucumber, cabbage and blackpepper sauce.

Quite nice, since I'm gulping it down with a tall glass of Milo Peng.

Oh, the cafe actually serves mixed rice, kuihs and soupy meal.... But again, I am full.. Maybe tomorrow. Rain check with Derm again...

And once we finished our meal, we stopped by the entrance to find an optical promotion. Wanting to try, but too lazy to wait for our turn...

A new day with a new start!!

Comel kan layout yang baru ni?? Got it from blogger templates site.. Alaa.. yang free itu.. Cuma sekarang kena reset balik all my links sebab ia akan automatik delete all the previous links.. I experimented with a few templates (as there are hundreds of them!!) And this one fits my title the best.. Actually it's not just the layout I'm revamping, I am actually thinking of a subject matter to fill up my future posts.. So that takdelah pembaca-pembaca, walaupun yang setakat singgah, boring mendengar yadayadayada ku ini.. Mana tau, boleh challenge blog redmummy ke, Kenny sia ke.. hahaha! Btw, while I am mentioning Kenny Sia, I guess there's nothing wrong in helping him to promote his new gym, Level Up Fitness... Nak gambar lebih lagi, pegi la blog dia, k!

Ni bangunannya...

Letaknya di sini...

Selamat bersenam Kuchingites!!!

Sometimes some people just doesn't walk the talk.

You thot you could trust them, but no...

Being honest and staying true to friendship is tough nowadays.

Hard to figure out if the friend is doing the same.

When it comes to work, friendship simply slip out of the window.

Totally pissed off by this insensitive act.

Hen Nite, Yasmin Ahmad & Gerberas...

Hi everyone!!

It has been a long weekend... Full of activities, events and work waiting to be done. Didn't go back to see my darlings this weekend since my ex-schoolmate, Laura, and herFriend Helga, are having their hen nite @ bachelorette party. Practically I'm a 'mak-ayam' since I'm married, :D, luckily there's another friend in the same boat as I am... Was held at a serviced apartment in the heart of BB, all girls, 11 of us. Basically it's like having a western meal - the cold appetiser, then came the main dish and ends with the dessert. Wouldn't detail it out, still waiting for the pictures from a dear friend who's still jet-lagged in UK. Tunggu jak lah.

While we were busy partying, the midnite news came with a shocking piece on Yasmin Ahmad death. Sempat gak we all pray in silence for 1 minute before resuming our party. She was so talented, sensitive to her surroundings and her stories are so full of love and forgiveness; not forgetting her heartbreaking ad for Petronas all these years. There will be no more Sepet, Gubra, Mukhsin, Talentime... No more sweet Tan Hong Ming and his girlfriend... I will truly miss her tearjerking ad, and I think of her as the utmost champion of unity long before 1Malaysia. All my love, Yasmin, and may you rest in peace... Truly a legacy!

Luckily I am still sober the next day to drive Laura home. And grab some curry puffs from Ikea. And rearrange the furniture in my rented apartment. Alih punya alih, i teroverhaul the dining area. Lupak ambik gambar sebelum, gambar selepas pun boleh juak nak?

The gerberas were from Ikea, same as the vase and the placemat. I took off the owner’s alas and replaced it with a shawl instead. Haha! Semua green.. At least I have a comforting home to return to...

Next week will be back in Kuching to see this girl....

What a busy week/month/year!!!

Lamanya dah tak update post kat sini... Past few weeks betul-betul mencengkam sebab kerja menimbun... I am never an expert in research papers whatsoever... So a bit difficult to adapt to new work environment.. I'm operational, and would have preferred spontaneity in work. Research is dragging my legs...

Today I finished keying-in all the data from ministries, although haven't receive all feedbacks. I'm short of staff, as in semua staff dah cabut ambik post kontrak kat ministry lain. PKS pay is ciput, compared to kontrak. So now dah x ada PKS, ha menangisla kawan... 800++ kementerian, dengan average 50 item per kementerian. Sakit oohh...

STAR TREK

Latest updates...

I haven't updated my blog not because I'm lazy. Simply because I have very limited time to think about any constructive post to put here. So take note ah my dear frens...

The past week was hectic since I need to finish up my work before I can go off to Penang for my ex-classmate's wedding. (Apparently she's my hubby's first cuzzie, so there's no excuse to skip it) Had a blast there, meeting up old friends (pictures in ma FB) and going for that gastronomy journey at Gurney Drive. Foodwise, berbaloi lah. My hubby and I had Penang Kuey Tiaw and Nasi Goreng Chicken Curry. Sedap hingga menjilat jari!!

Thereafter work chases me again. Setakat hari ini I have doubled my training days (zzan, I could never achieve this masa di SUPS). It has only been 3 months and I have attended countless workshops, seminars and FG meetings. The problem now is the Knowledge Management to ensure that all those intellectual asset doesn't decay. This is supposed to be my master degree proposal. The thing about the current public sector is that it has all the technology and expertise, but it lacks security, and most importantly, the intellectual asset management plan.

However, to start with, I think I better manage my own blog first. I am actually thinking to limit my entries to a few categories, which I often write on, instead of undecided rants, ramblings or tantrums. How about that?

Longing of the Heart

Last weekend I was back home sweet home in Miri with my loved ones. Although the weather was somehow wet through the weekend, we had an enjoyable trip to the beach. And I regret that I missed out on Elly's antiques..

This is Elly showing of her new denim skirt and tank top. Haha! She loves dancing, singing her heart out and poco-poco with her grandma.










Pandai lagi tu pujuk mummynyer... Terus buat perangai when mummy is around...

Elly at Luak beach.

When will I see them again...

The Climb...

Ni lirik lagu Miley Cyrus which I find is different from what she often sings. It's quite motivating, though...


The Climb
I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (yeah)

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (yeah yeah ea ea)

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

Tidbits I

Currently @ Mines, munching on some free Dunkin Donuts leftovers with my sister. As for tonite, I'm actually blogging from my hp, since there's plenty of time before the movie starts. Decided to watch 'Knowing' starring Nicholas Cage. I'm definitely a fan of his movies. First time was in the Face-Off, I think. Rasa cam nak tengok Talentime jugak, but we'll see if I feel like it tomorrow. Lagipun esok nak gi tengok KLCC blackout for one hour. Apa-apa pun, I'll prepare a full report on Sunday. In the meantime, kita enjoy!!

POKERFACE

If I want to say it out, it would be a word of hatred. Which I was not taught by my parents. I'm a human diplomat, I would always try to find a soft way to tell you how I felt, no matter how BAD or how DIFFICULT you are. Somehow, I think I am in this alone. You don't even care, let alone HELP. You are a jerk, and it doesn't help that I have to see your face everyday.

I wonder to myself, how bad can people be?? To hurt people by words is an incisive act that could kill the mind and flesh. Might as well you kill me physically than hurt me psychologically. No doubt. You're a POKERFACE joker bum.

Kita Enjoy!!!

Hari ini rasa-rasa cam nak speaking Malaya plak. After all, kita hendaklah memartabatkan Bahasa Melayu yang menjadi bahasa Kebangsaan negara kita.. Chewah.. Tergagap-gagap tu. Memandangkan sekarang ni tengah aktif menulis kertas kajian, kertas kerja dan sebagainya, maka Kamus DBP menjadi teman setia, thesaurus Oxford pula untuk menambahkan lagi bunga bahasa. (it's getting harder you know...) Dahla BM aku setakat A2, payah juga nak flashback zaman sekolah dulu...

Hari ini bos takde, kena menghadiri bengkel di Melaka. So, takde gangguan sangatlah dan kerja boleh diteruskan dengan lancar. Kena siapkan dua minit dalam masa tiga hari... Kalau minit dalaman takpe, ni minit yang nak kena edar ngan agensi-agensi lain.... Kat sini strict giler2 pasal minit ni!! Siap ada daftar minit dengan tempoh edaran gitu.. Sakit jiwa!!!

Hujung minggu ni pulak kena hadir kursus Business Process Reengineering di PD. Lama dah tak menjenguk PD ni... Kat Kementerian dulu memang takde tempat lain lah.. Asyik-asyik PD, sebab tak boleh pergi jauh2... Tapi duduk State best, pegi KK lah, Labuan lah.. Rasa2 nak pergi KK lagilah...

Dendang Perantau

I've been in KL for some years before I returned to Kuching last time. I enjoyed working here, cuma masalahnya tak tahan berjauhan dengan family... I have to admit, I'm a family-woman. Hahah!

I'm going home (to Miri) today... Can't wait to see Elly and her Dad. She's started her swimming class with her auntie Pila, so hopefully I can bring her to the beach sometime soon..

Workwise ok plak. I'm lucky I have such considerate bosses, so far. Just that some red-tapes high above need to be re-colored to transparent.

Anyhow, I'm patiently waiting for my transfer letter... Harap-harap dapat balik ke Sarawak soon. Thank you Dato' N, Tan Sri B. Love ya all!

Slumdog Millionaire

Last weekend my bro and I went to watch this movie (have been waiting forever for it to be screened). It doesn't need a rocket scientist to figure out why it is the most amazing film to date. Most importantly, it reflects the ugly side of MUMBAI (despite the glamour and all), and the movie explore the activities that most people living in MUMBAI would want to deny. My heart pours for the kids, who had to fend for themselves in slums, dumpsites, and I sincerely feel that it does not only happen in India, but our part of the world as well...
I totally enjoyed the movie, and I think the kids are brilliant in their acting (if I need to compare with the heroine, Freida Pinto). She only appears after 1 hour plus into the movie! Dev Patel is definitely the guy to watch for, and I hope Danny Boyle will keep on making movies lkihe this. It's no wonder they won 8 Oscars, incl. Best Director, Best Picture, Best Original Song and Best Original Score, among others. Here I'll give you some background on the movie, taken from wikipedia (oh, I know some of you are just too lazy to wiki it).
Have fun and enjoy the show!

Slumdog Millionaire is a 2008 British drama film directed by Danny Boyle, co-directed by Loveleen Tandan, and written by Simon Beaufoy. It is an adaptation of the Boeke Prize-winning and Commonwealth Writers' Prize-nominated novel Q & A (2005) by Indian author and diplomat Vikas Swarup.
Set and filmed in India, Slumdog Millionaire tells the story of a young man from the slums of Mumbai who appears on the Indian version of Who Wants to Be a Millionaire? (Kaun Banega Crorepati, mentioned in the Hindi version) and exceeds people's expectations, arousing the suspicions of the game show host and of law enforcement officials.
After screenings at the Telluride Film Festival and the Toronto International Film Festival, Slumdog Millionaire initially had a limited North American release on 12 November 2008 by Fox Searchlight Pictures and Warner Bros. Pictures, to critical acclaim and awards success. It later had a nationwide release in the United Kingdom on 9 January 2009 and in the United States on 23 January 2009. It premiered in Mumbai on 22 January 2009.
Slumdog Millionaire was nominated for ten Academy Awards and won eight of them, the most for any film that year, including Best Picture. It also won five Critics' Choice Awards, four Golden Globes, and seven BAFTA Awards, including Best Film. The film is also the subject of controversy concerning its portrayal of India and Hinduism as well as the welfare of its child actor

Saturday Rants

A saturday is supposed to be d sleeping in day.. Ya know.. Waking up later than weekdays, spring-cleaning and such... but my department decided to have the launching of the sport's month today! My precious saturday is gone again, sadly. But did not fret though. Had fun with my bosses and subs. So it was a well-spent saturday morning, nevertheless. Elly had fun with her grandma. They went for an early breakfast, and in the evening attended the annual dinner. Wah, Elly doesn't misses mummy?

Intending to watch the Slumdog movie tomorrow. Maybe after church.

Newbie

I am a newbie in anew surrounding.. Not so foreign but in a way, demanding, more-focused group and exhilirating as well.

I was promoted and came to Putrajaya (again). Reported for duty last week but unfortunately caught the bug and have been coughing ever since. My hubby says I'm missing my baby, tu yang sakit tu...

It's a different environment and culture altogether. I was so used to routine chores that my hands itching for something to do. In the end, I ended up blogging (although I'm not suppose to do that here) but since somebody is reading, so kena fill up the blog-lah, right?